I have a desire, a desire to build something with my hands.
I am not sure whether you are aware but I work in an office, at a computer, designing stormwater drainage. I rarely use my hands for anything other can typing or writing notes. I feel a desire to be doing something with my hands.
My search for improvement has lead me down some interesting paths. One website I came across shared the idea that we still have our primitive tendencies even in a modern world. We have a desire to create objects and tools, and use those objects and tools as implements to help us. The following is a large quote from an Art of Manliness post about male depression.
Mood scientists suggest that the evolutionary origin of depression may explain why rates of it have increased tenfold in the last 100 years. Our bodies, minds, and mood systems evolved for an environment that no longer exists today, and this mismatch is likely making more and more people feel miserable.
In contrast, modern folk are sleep-deprived, sedentary, and rarely venture outside their fluorescent-lit cubicles. Crucially, we people of the 21st century are also highly isolated. Ancient tribesmen were part of close-knit communities; today we exist as fragmented individuals who often must bear life’s disappointments and setbacks on our own. In our lonely echo chambers, with our primary focus on the self, waves of melancholy become magnified many times over.
It seems that technology and changes in how we live and work in the world have evolved in ways that our bodies and minds have not been able to adapt with. While the article primarily links the mind to this, I feel that this also applies to us in terms of physical labour. We were designed to create physical objects, rather than numbers and “objects” on computer screens.
While I am not going to re-invent the hammer or spanner, I feel that it would be nice to use these kinds of tools to make something with my hands. Now my problem is that while these tools can create lots of things, the cost of purchasing these tools can be prohibitive, especially for something you don’t know if you will stick with it.
This is where I have come to a crossroads. Do we fork out money on things that I may grow tired of a few short weeks after purchasing them? Or do I just sit back and ponder the idea and never do anything about it? That is the question of the day.
So this is where I wonder if I can find a hobby where I use my hands regularly, to get back to what seems like primitive humanity, or I continue on my journey in a pure, mental only thinking. I think it may be time to try something new.